Boring day, boring life

I realised my lack of active blogging.

Well, went to many places and had many fun.
Sometimes i remember to take photos, sometimes i dont.
When i get home, i look at the pictures and didnt feel like blogging about them. They looked so random. (But not to the supper nite..)

Haiz.

Sigh.

Suddenly, I hate my physical flaws.
I dont wish to look at any of my photos.

Thick makeup also ugly. Light makeup also ugly. No makeup also ugly. WTH. There's nothing i can do. Maybe i should go under a rock and live there forever with the guy that I like until he gets tired of seeing nothing except me and the rock.

Many times i've thought of going for plastic surgery but i dont think i'll ever go for it. Call me gutless. Im afraid of regretting. Im afraid of changes. Im afraid of failures. Yeah.. But somehow, I think everybody got its individual uniques.

BUT!!

Why couldn't i be like the other girls?

Sorry for not being the happy usual self. I dont wish to be like this too... Mood swing i guess...

Arggghhh........

Anyway,

I think due to the festive seasons, and holidays, I really dont feel like doing anything. Including my notes, assignment. All I want to do is eat and sleep, play and watch. Die, what will I become when the school starts on next Wednesday?

Sian.

I have a feeling that he might be coming back to Singapore. Sorry if I've been talking about him for the past few days, weeks or even months. Really kinda miss him. Miss his lameness, miss his singing, miss his guitar playing, miss every Sunday he will need to squeeze to sit with me in the car while on the way to church. Ok, thats all, I should stop talking about him. Ha.

Anyway, today is a boring day, waking up at 2.30, bf call me since 9.30am, 11am, 12.30pm and 1.30pm. But Im still waking up damn late, ha. Well, XS din online, if he online, maybe I have a accompany to have an lameness chat. I love it when we lame-talk in msn, like I remember we have the lame talk till 2-3am. I was so pek chek but yet funny :) At least its brings a smile to my face.

But but but.. I and him is just and online buddy. Haiz, too bad, he have been offline for weeks, dont know what is he up to. Maybe busy wooing girls, ha!

Well, thats all..

Celestine